New year – lots to reflect on….to make this less about rambling and more on thoughts and wisdom gained, I’m going to state a few major ones here:
- 2019 was a BIG year for us. So many things happened last year, the biggest one of all was that we bought a house! Three months after becoming a homeowner, I still can’t believe it. Impostor syndrome, the feeling like you’re living in someone else’s life has been rampant here. More on that on a later day….
- 2019 was the year that I learned to focus and let go at the same time. I slowed down (unfortunately, I don’t think I can ever let go) on social media–checking Instagram less wasn’t as hard as I thought. Several years back, I stopped checking Facebook altogether, and I am happy to say I’ve never felt the urge to go back and immerse myself in the online world that way again. As for blogs, websites, articles, pictures and things that one typically finds on social media, I’m still a big fan, but I realized that those platforms are also major outlets for advertising–something I am NOT interested in. It’s funny how you can be browsing someone’s post and see a flash of an advertisement for clothing…subliminal messaging at its best here. And because I checked Instagram way less and read blogs a bit less, I also learned to focus my time on what’s really important.
- Speaking of which, I don’t really know where this blog is going…or if I even want to write regularly at all. Since I change my mind a few times a year, this could be the start or the end of something.
- 2019 was the year that I started to revisit things I enjoyed doing as a child. I’ll talk more about it on a different day, but the main point is this–art was my creative outlet, and that’s what I wanted to do–become a fashion designer. However, art comes in many forms, with drawing being my first love and design my second. That said, about two months ago, I decided to dive back into drawing. I don’t know where that’s going to go, but I realize that it’s important to practice self-care and the ability to focus and create things is a very powerful tool, not to mention, skill. In this day and age, we’re all so distracted, and not taking care of ourselves. And doing art is a way for me to take care of myself. I don’t think I’m that good…yet. But I am definitely going to try.
- Along the same lines, I’ve learned from the past two years of consistent reading that it is possible to have time for yourself, and possible to learn new things all the time. Habits are hard to develop but easy to break. But the common denominator is time and mindset. Give yourself time (a little bit each day helps) and a mindset of not giving up will make you successful in anything you do.
- I spent the past decade being poor and feeling poor…not something I want to admit readily but it’s true. 2019 was the first year that I no longer feel that way. I’m not going to blame the economy anymore, because I can’t do anything about it. All I can do is let go. For a long time, we were “stuck” (albeit a loosely defined term) in a tiny apartment in one of the most affluent neighborhoods in town. (Imagine the oxymoron there). I knew it was time to let go, but it was hard to many reasons…..then, finally I decided to let go–make the jump, hence the house purchase. I kept my expectations low, and luckily it worked out. So, whatever it is that you’re afraid to do, remember that the grass can be greener on the other side, but you’ll never know unless you go over there. And sometimes you may have to hold your breath and jump over blindly…
Until then, here are a small selection of the numerous photos that I took in 2019–these are the ones that made it into our family calendar 🙂
Happy new year!